"My Worst Ending"

"My Worst Ending"

"Relationship goals? Say it we made it. Couple tees, romantic dates, cuddles, chocolates, parents' permission, travelling, etc. For 4 years of being in a relationship with her. I must say we did what your dream relationship did.

Our 'almost perfect' relationship started way back 4th year high school. We didn't went to same colleges but we're only one town apart. Our relationship experienced a lot of ups and downs. But I can proudly say. We surpassed it all.

We are even not shy to fart at each other ruining the romantic atmosphere while watching a movie. I can easily read her mind, same as she reads mine too. We accepted each others flaws and imperfection. We were practicing to be a good husband and wife.

'She's the girl that's perfect for me. She's meant for me. Her hands fits perfectly with mine. She's mine and mine alone.' Words that I always repeat on my mind way back then.

Not until her father died. Her father died due to heart failure. She was so devastated. She was a tatay's-girl. She wouldn't stop crying until she falls asleep. I want to comfort her. I want her to know that I am here for her. Too bad, sadness ate her heart and covered my chamber there. 4 consecutive months but still she haven't moved on. I understand her. I mean, I want to understand her. But I felt like she was losing time for me. She's always staring at nowhere. Then I told her,

"Naunsa naman ka? Wa pa gihapon ka ka-move-on?! Dugay na kaayo to nahitabo. Na wad-an nakag time para nako!"

"Wa ka kahibalo unsa akong gibati! Kung dili ka musabot nako magbulag nalang ta!"

I was dumbfounded by her answer. How easy can she tell that to me.

"No. Sige. Tagaan tika'g time. Tutal mag-OJT man sad ko sa Luzon. Pag balik nako, dapat okay naka."

You didn't answered. But I take your silence as a 'yes'.

After a few months, I came back to your house. But to my surprise, no one was there. Except the new home owner who told me you and your mom sold your house for good. I was very shocked. You didn't even told me while we were chatting yesterday. So I contacted you immediately but the line just kept on ringing. A few days later, as I was calling you the line didn't ring that's is when I told myself you changed your number. You blocked me on social media. How rude of you. But I love you so I keep saying to myself you will come back.

But the long wait lasted for 3 more years. I saw you at a fastfood chain but you ran as we met each other's eyes. I didn't know what to feel as I watch you slowly disappear. And the wait took more than 2 years. And I am now a Mechanical Engineer. I have a relationship with 2 girls but none of it lasted more than 3 months. Because I know I am still waiting for you.

I went to the church. I wanted to pray for your come back. To end my misery of finding you. To hear an explanation from you. And to my surprise, He really answered my prayers immediately. I saw you appeared with a glowing smile on your face. With eyes that are full of faith. With clothes that are wore by nuns. I didn't know how to react. You are really a nun. I want to pinch myself. But I know this isn't a dream. You are wearing a nuns' clothes. I don't know how to approach you. So I ran out of the church fast. Maybe, this is the answer of our love story.

We are not meant to be. I want your explanation but I'll just wait for our next meet. So I can truly face my worst truth. That I'm no longer gonna have you."

PS. I posted this at other pages too.

M.L.E.

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