"A Wife Who Cheated"

I just want to confess my sins. Charut! Sa akong nangabasahan ani Nga page, nahikayat nalang pod ko mag confess. 

Bitaw uie.. gusto Lang nako e let go and at the same time e share akong crazy life. 

I studied at XU-ADCU 

I grew up into a Christian household. Pastors akong bloodlines. My grannies were so strict they won’t even let me attend to Fiesta sa nayon coz it’s paganism daw and every time naa JS prom Dili ko maka sayaw sa disco nor dance with a guy kay bawal. I really had unbalance and abnormal social life growing up. None of my family does drugs nor drink alcoholic drinks. Ako ra ata. I remembered my mom asked,” where did you get that abilities? You probably got that from your father’s side 😆 Innever had ang boyfriends in high school. Mao nga pag college PAKKK IOEN GATES OF HEAVENS FREE AS THE BIRD KAAYO KO.

FF. My family didn’t like my first BF kay lage wala ga school and advance pod sila mag isip “ how can he provide your needs nga Mismo iyang self di niya ma providan. Ikaw lugar mag buhi niya?” W/c was true. But we still meet secretly hantod nasapnan mi sako tito sa dapit sa Lourdes apartment gas gisumbong ko sakong parents nga naa sa abroad and threatened me na they won’t send me to school anymore. Mao to importante ang EDUCATION so we broke up and na LDR napod mi so wala nay Claro.Btw we were each other’s first blood. Our first was crazy. I wasn’t really crazy over him kay ana sila basta siya una mabuang daw ka sa guy, but I never got crazy. Wala Lang kay maybe I learned at a very young age nga dili jud mag apas or mangamho oh lalaki.

After months, I met a guy silingan namo he was waaaayyy younger than I. Nag school sa MOGCHS. Nag kami and then dugay pod mi agto niya mga 3 yrs but we didn’t work out kay idk I was just lonely and mahadlok ko matulog alone kay uromonon ko that’s why I always have with me either my dog or ako uyab Aron I feel safe.idk jud everytime I sleep naay mga voices and sometimes mi flashback mga horror movies mao maka trigger sakong nightmares 😆. I also had a night with this high schooler when I was doing my practice teacher at ___ national high school. Siya man naka gusto nako so nahinaykan na noon nako Siya pod. 

Anyway…. Year 2010 I met a foreigner sa multi cab on my way to school. So ang style nato sa pinas diba kay itunol ang pliti so I took his pliti 20php he stopped at KSY kay taga Liceo is fun diay Siya! Pero that day just passed by…. After my class sa afternoon on my way home nako naay familiar sa dalan dapit sa sakayanan multi cab ! Hala!!! The same guy! So nag dali2 ko kay I wanna ride with him charnlang.,,

I just looked at him. I liked his eyes. They were blue! Lamia this guy ui huhu.

He suddenly said.” Are you also going to __?

Me: uhm yup are you heading the same way? (Ayayayy mahinaykan jud ka nako dzong yaw jud pag lamlama 😆) Kay same man mi barangay gi stayhan nagka chika mi sa multicab so I initiated the chika he replied and then he asked my number so we could meet some time and have some laag with friends. Hahahahahahhha longness thy hair kaayo ko!

 hangtod nagka close mi mag sabay kada gabii mag kinatok kasabay pod nako iyang mga friends from different places sa Phil nga mga exchange students pod. So dagto na open akong mind sa mga everythings so I cheated with this high schooler and isog ni Siya kay member sa Alpha Kappa Rho so naa siyay mga gangs and barkada so mahadlok ko ma sumbagan ni ako foreigner guy mao nga sekreto rajud. Mas exciting if sekreto no? 😆 

Fast forward.Kani si foreigner niuli sa ilaha sa Europe and I was graduating na and nag ka talk napod mi usab. Cge mi video call and chat sa Skype we kept in touch .He said he wanted to be there sako graduation. Pero prior to that decision niya ga himo mi mga malaswa sa video calls namo. 😆 

Finally he came back to the Philippines. We met. He gave me chocolates and wine.We went to the parties. We went to Opol sa midway .. so wala namay rooms nag tent mi and boom boom nag jerbox mi guys. Dakoaaaaaaaaaaaaaa na V*rginian kog balik. Pagka morning I thought we’ll go home na .. niana man siya sa taxi driver ,” kuya Queensland po” pakkkkk nag continue sa Queensland na shocks ko that time kay naay mirror everywhere nahadlok ko and I ealized na gaka hadlok kog mirrors? Weird coz I usually look at myself sa mirror peroooo kato nga place daghan kayo mirror jud naa sa ceiling , left and right mao nahadlok ko pero jerbox Lang japon 😆 . I was in a mess wa ko ksabot sa akong life so I stopped

Communicating to him. :( After a week namo nag jerbox I went to Cebu and then prepared my documents kay paluparay kog Thailand kay na hired ko as a teacher.

Tapos we stopped communicating. Oh we’ll towel.

Year 2013, I was in Thailand na. I got to work. My career was so smooth. Until na curious ko sa life. I downloaded WE CHAT. Nag chat2 ko sa mga foreigners kay di nako ganahan ug SE asian (di ko racist lain Lang ako experience sa pinoy and ako napod ge generalized na ang mga thai pod number 1 cheater sa world 😆) so I met this Serbian guy he was a teacher in China, we met . We went to the islands he was really kind. Goshhhh Inreally have weak spot for bearded men. BEARDED MEN. Beard. The more the lamier. The thicker the better.

So we talked about life.. we ate pizzas. Coz we both don’t like Thai food. Aside from halang, naa jud pod smell. And then we went to the seaside and had some beer. Hang today we went to our hotel na andddddd….we jerboxed yuuu guys 😆 at that time di man ko kabalo jud anang “org*sm” I don’t know how and I don’t have ang idea unsa jud na like j*r2 Lang and that’s all I think ang lalaki ra malipay. Pero I still tried man to have the feeling pero wala hahaha. Mao to ok Lang. Weird akong feelings di japon ko kasabot. Same feeling with the afam I had sa pinas. So Mao to we didn’t work out. I told him I was pregnant and he had a lot of excuses. I just wanted to mess up with him and see how he would react. So Mao to hahaha I wasn’t actually pregnant ui. Safety first.

Next I installed TINDER and met this young Californian guy. He was a backpacker. Ay nako ambot ato niya dako pod kaayo tog notch pero we just have some food and pizza and guess what half half mi bayad sa bill ayta man to uie I hated that guy. Hhhaha!

The Next guy was from India. We went to Phuket. Gallantry nga indian uie. He wasn’t the dark type. He was kinda arabian looking if nakay idea sa mga ga head dress nga indian men , well that’s his caste. So he was really kind pero he was so chubby I could hear him HINGAL so naka katawa ko kay sexy baya ko that time.I guess nalain to siya nako hahahahahhaahhaha he was upset and angry so we stopped but he already came ako wala yowo I don’t know why.maybe because I was just thinking nga ahhh one night stand rani and after that I never talked to him anymore and siya pa nasuko “ why aren’t you talking to me anymore? You’re such a bitch” I was like … huh? Bye uie Ka busy ba. 

So another Tinder nasaaad! 

I really had a plan of conquering all the men in the world. I met the Kenyan and hala! Di nako moosab niagto gud ko sa healing shop kay para e heal akong lalat 😆 monster to siya grabe. 

Until the arab guy came. Mao ni akong ka Ldr . We clicked. We never started a convo in an indecent way. He was serious. We talked over the phone. We met in TAGGED. When I was backpacking in Vietnam 🇻🇳. We talked about our past experiences. He was really an open-minded guy. We did video calls and chat for a year and then he visited me in Thailand. This guy is serious and I got scared coz I only wanted to play around :( I was scared to commit coz my mission was to conquer the world lageh. Pero this guy taught me nga you don’t need to coZ I’m your world. ❤️ Ganahan mi ug bus trips mao nag bus mi Padulong south. Joker man to kay naa minds likod kaayo and ako Siya ge blow job. Hahaha wala jud ni ka experience tawhana ug inani kay not in their country jud 😝 

He’s the only serious guy I’ve had for a long period of time. He stayed for 3 months. TBH I like the way he handled me. Very romantic maayo kaayo mo dala. Maayo mokaon sa kinason. Soyopon pati imong soul. Maka inlove. Pero demanding ni Siya sa bed. You can only imagine arabs. Take note. Arabs not pakistanis and Indians sa Arab countries nga baho (sorry not all). I loved his scent. Very Arabian scent. In short guys na inlove INYUNG Lola. I promised myself not to be in love anymore but here I am. We wanted to have a baby but I told him na let’s get married first. “ of course yes! Ana Siya” Pero guys… 

Naa siyay ugly side…. He would shout when he’s angry and break things 😔na verbally abused ko sometomes.maka remember gud dayun ko anang mga stories about arab bosses nga ila pasakitanila maids. Na sad ko but Kani Lang ALPHA FEMALE TA NO . Mga IDGAF musokol baya mag wild lahi ming duha. Basin kaingon siya mga filipina girls sayon Lang. Got! Don’t do mag fingerling kay nakoy grado song. Maka sad coz I really liked him I love him so much jud. He also loves me pero mao ni ang lisod sa interracial and interfaith relationship 😞 I had to compromise going to church kay maoi amo awayan kay he didn’t like the people agto nga church gina head to foot daw siya. I never believed it until later na. Imagine mag sininggita mi sa dalan murag mga bata. I never realized that those were the red flags. But still… ako gi limotan kay I was hoping and I believed na there’s good in him (and it cost me a lot later ) iya pod eexplain nga di siya ganahan sa iya gibuhat and hope na change siya he would say nga sorry kay ambot mokalit Lang ko. And naa siyay anger issues. I guess the middle eastern s are like this if not all then maybe 90%. Maka remember ko ni Belktas ug Ruffa Gutierrez. Ataya lageh. Ganahan kayao mi ug mga middle eastern and or Mediterranean guys. maayo pod ni Siya mo storya ma kuha niya akong mga weakness maayo mo explain. Bootan if ok pero if mag lagot mugawas jud iyang arab side. So Mao to I loved him but cge mi away bati away bati. Until the day came that he had to go back to his country. Murag na kwaan kog tonok. But at the same time sad ko kay layo mi. So Back to LDR mode. I thought ma boros ko but wala kay nakoy PCOS and lisod ko maburos -sometimes dog on kog tag 3 mos sometimes di ko dog on og 5 months. So every Year ga visit ako arabo.everytime he comes here give and take amo expenses sometimes ako pay sometimes siya. Kay di ko ganahan pa libre jud.Mao na jud na ako nature. Lol anyway

2years nami ni arab guy. Online dating Lang japon. 

Dani sa TH nakoy friend na bayot.Schoolmate nako Sa XU before and dani Lang mi nag ka close. Kay di man gud mi same major.kani nga bayot mahilig nig mga thai nga lalaki.

And of course ako wala rako ga judge niya kay mao man iya gusto. As a friend mo support ta sa iya happiness. 

Akong friend naa siyay car so nag road trip mi kay gikan man siya sa Hatyai and he transferred here sa “tooottt”. We drove around and went tot the coastline. Pag pauli namo naguba iyang car bes di na muandar 😆 

So he called a friend and at first nakita nako iya friend dili jud gwapo. Kani man gud akong bayut na friend mahilig Ug exotic beauties nya ako kay mahilig man kog afam puti . So I asked my friend na imo nang uyab? Ana Siya Dili.

Friends Lang mi.’pero duda najod ko. 😆 

FF. Kato iya friend nag invite ug dinner sa ilang balay. So niagto pod mi sako migo. 

I could still remember BULAD Ang sud an ug some other Thai food. Naa iya family and mga kids sa iya sister. 2 floors medjo dako na house. 

Nya Kani ako friend mahilig mag sungog2 “eetttttneettttt bagay sila. Maayo mani mo thai ako migo gud” ako kalagot ko niya kay di ko ganahag thai jud! And besides naa koy uyab na arabo. Loyal ko bess.

So sa amo pag panihapon nag pour kog juice sa glass sako migo ug iya thai friend. Nikalit mana sila katawa kay gikilig lage daw si thai guy. Kay ilang culture if mag pour ang gurl means naka gusto. Hastang giataya wtf ay pag kilig2 kay bati kag nawong!

So Mao to nag sunod2 ang laag, actually di ko ganahan jud makig laag kay wala koy interest. Hantod muagto sila sakong apartment mag sabaay so monnaog ko and go with them…. Mag wonder ako uyab why maglaag gabii na, sa ako palakaw na I’ll sleep na pero actually laag ko bilin Lang phone sa balay kay ka detect sa app aha ko basta naa na sa iPhone nga mabal an aha ka. 

Mao to when I went downstairs gi hug ko ni thai guy, YOWO na shakira ko kay WTH why would you and you know I have uyab.

Kani ako amigo would say SIGE LANG UY PARA NAA TA LIBRE RIDES AND LIVRE TA DRINKS SA MGA BAR kay manglibre mani si Thai guy hahha ao ako okayy gooo why not! Ako lagi ang bayad ani akong friend lage kay if di ko moagtosi man pod moagto si thai guy. So okaasyyy…ga Duda na jud ako arabo pero I was able to manage my time with my friends and my bf amd the other guy.

The Thai guy and my friends would laag around the southern parts of Thailand. Mahilig mi mag agto mga cafe restos and malls like CENTRAL PLAZAS.libre. Kay you know ako man ang pambayad haha animas. So Mao to this guy cge na chat nako sa LINE APP. Ma lagot ko kay ngano ka clingy ba. Bati nawong. 🙄 pero guys ako Lang jud cya ginasakysakayan kay pra lang sa mga benefits. Usahay aftwr sako work or mga vacant time nako sa day iya ko anhaon sa ako workplace kay mag coffee mi sa Cafe Amazon. Amazon jud na amo place.

So Mao to guysssss mga 2 months mi cge inani and di man jud siya ga stop. So ana ko 

“ you only want fuck right?” We can fuck right now so that you can stop “ coz I know na mga laki iyot rana apas why not give it pra move on na ta bes.

Naa man dayun siyay mga 

“ no I not with you for fvk only krap “ krap is “po” for men and “kha “ for women. Mao na ila polite way of saying “po” like mano “po” lola. Ganern 

Mao to mga pila ka days nag j*r2 mi. Ataya ui kay I’m used to afam puti so Mao ni ako first time in a looooong time maka SE Asian guy napod. Tbh Dili jid dako man uie haysx 😆 nya mu ana Siya 

“ kuwai nit diyao you ok mai” 

“ gamay akong otin ok ra sa imo?” 

Ambot if na insulto ko or nalooy niya 

I think both haha yawa mani siya unsa najud ka bangag!!? I can do KEGEL uie, 😆 

SO ANA KO NGA YEAH kay I’ve told you about my pst men and ikaw ra jud least nilang tanan hahaha

Dzah so Mao to pero ganahan japon siya nako no kay master man ko sa bed.

Pwede ra jud ka maghigda manong ako na bahala tanan basta keep your little thing on 😆 animala this girl uie 😆 

Mao to di man nako siya pasodlon sako apartment kh mahadlok ko sa CCTV camera basin mabal an sako arabo. Ana ko ka praning. So we’ll make our kalaswaan outside not in my room coz my room is sacred para ra jud sa amo ni ababo.

So kay di man Pwede sa ako place muagto mi mag check in.. sometimes muagto sa ilang balay. Sometimes sa car outside sa apartment. Ganahan ko sa car kay thrilling Kanang mag lisod3 bitaw nice siya 😝 

I asked him how old he was. He told me he was 35. Wow kilos Ko kay ideal ni nga mga ahe sa akoa. But then I asked him how old your daughter is ( kay separated sila sa iya wife. That’s also one of the reason why di ko ganahan niya) ana dayun siya shes 21.

So I did the math. 

“ so you had a baby when you were in mattayom?” Mattayom means high school. 

Na shocked siya ana dayon ko 

LIAR! GOHOK! GOHOK means liar. 

Nikatawa siya kay sakspan ana siya 42 bitaw ko…. Yowo uieeeeeeee nahinaykan na nako siya. Pastilan Gorrrrr

So Mao to we kept on being like this for 8 mos. but cge mi communicate japon sako bf. Until one day, my bf came to Thailand again kay mai na akong tradition every year mag meet.. so tbh ana ang thai guy just leave him and be with me. I promise I take care you. 

“I can’t, I love my bf. We were just a game, I’m not serious on you, Mao to 

Finally my bf had arrived ako gi sunod sa airport pero prior to that nag j*r2 pa mi ni thai guy, di man ka bal an kay si arab guy well mighty fat dck. I know right I’m a cheater :(

So Mao to I left thai guy with a broken heart. Akong friends nag atiman niya kay akong bayut ma friend told me na “kami na bahala ni thai guy kay basin naa siyay mahimo na bad shading you and arabo” so Mao to 

I felt bad but at the same time I wanna end cheating on my bf.

So Mao to akong bf mag wonder why di nako same before kay everytime mag make love mi ako ma think si thai guy, you know why?

Thai guy is very kind, soft spoken , understanding he would give me everything not materially but my freedom. I can go anywhere wear any dress I like if mag shorts ko ok ra mag bikini ok ra mag friemds with bayut ok ra. He never raised a voice to me. Wala jud ko ka feel og kahadlok nga masayop ko . He is ok with my friends. And he’s ok with my parents. Mag eat mi outside wala

Mi problem everytime with family.

Pero si arab guy I remembered mag away mi in front sa akong parents ma ulaw gud ko and mugawas jud iya arab blood lageh. But I still stick to him. My family likes and loves him except nga muslim siya. Naguba amo relationship sako parents coz of him in the later life.

So back to when bf came to Thailand.

Naa nakoy time nga gaaway mi. Everytime mag away mi mag message Ko Kay thai guy nga nag away napod mi and masoko siya ky wa gud ko sukad na ianana with him.

Usahay sa ako free time di nako moagto apartment nya mag wait si bf dagto anha rako uli mga 4:30 pm kay di nako nahan mooli. Every free time mag meet up mi ni thai guy. Ma miss namo each other… so akong feelings grabe ka fbkced up. Wa nako kasabot. 

I went back to the apartment. We went to the beach for sunset and guess what! 

Nag propose si arab bes!!!!! 

Na happy kaayo Ko kay wow I got to marry my bebe! So grabe ear to ear ang smile. Full of love 💕 I told my parents and then we went to road trips. May time nga nag lalis mi sa GPS and then na trigger bitaw ni si arab guys nag road rage siya Kanang makita nimo sa Dubai nga mag road rage siya. I was so angry May my parents were in the same car matigok mi tanan just kay nalagot siya sa na una nga car kay slow daw. So many red flags nga ako Lang gi ignore pero pa dayun Lang japon ko sa road to hell. 

(Take note everything that happened to me, the Thai guy knows kay ako man I chika niya kay friendship baya mi)

Until such time nga mag pakasal na mi ni arab guy . We were just actually asking the Sheikh what documents we need to get marred in Thailand pero maybe coz of language barrier the sheikh went somewhere and when he got back naa na siyay documents.! Na shocked mi ni fiancé kay naka pants Lang mi pero mao na to nakasal nami. I was happy. 

Time came na we had to travel to Bangkok to my embassy and went to DFA to authenticate our marriage certificate. Na authenticate na tanan pero wala pa namo ma register da PHIL embassy and district to where we live in Thailand. We needed to authenticate that I’m a wife so that I can enter to his country. 

(Up to this time te thai guys cge japon update sa ako kumusta nako kumusta nami Amin nag congratulate siya)

It wasn’t a smooth one When my husband and I were doing our documents in Bangkok. Mag cge Lang mi argue mag raise sa among voices. He has this attitude of blaming people. I understand kay Dili pod ok iyang childhood. Father issues. And everytime na stress or panick attack mangisog siya murag dragon. Mahadlok lage ko everytime mag away mi kay it won’t end up ok. For him normal ra kaayo nga mo raise iyang voice and normal ra ang away. For me dili jud na taranta ko ma shocked ko ma trauma ko but what can I do I married this man.

One time nag away mi sa sky train and mrt we won’t talk. He would just follow me wherever I go. And then giignan ko niya.. you’re doing this to me to make me feel weak coz I only have to follow you coz I don’t know this place and anytime you can just leave me here. Nalooy ko niya. Mismo ako na feel nako ana if naa guro ko sa ila country. Mao to na ok nami.

Nag bus rami pa balik and guess what. NAG AWAY NASAD MI SA BUS YAWA MAN TO UI! Naka think magic ko munaog sa bus and leave him like end us up. 😭 😭 😭 

Di jud mi magkasinabot and stressed jud mi duha. 😢 

Na tempt nako manawag ni thai guy pero I held myself kay this is it panindigan nako ako decisions.

So we arrived to our destination. We were ok. All I can remember sa amo relationship kay problema away bati problema most of the time and away most of the time. Tbh I got tired but I really wanted to have a perfect marriage life.

He wanted to stay with me and be under my visa since were married. But I told him he should go back to his country( probably because I got tired to him we always fight) nag wonder siya why and I told him I wanna live there I wanna see a snow I want to see winter and you country ha one of the worlds wonder) so Mao to he was sad kay he also left everything there to be with me so it means he would have to go back and start from zero.

So na happy ko I know I’m bad. This time nga nilakaw na siya I met the Thai guy. We were together (Fock I cheated again) for 5 mos coz by the 6th month I will fly to hubby’s country. So ya know na we made love and it was unprotected sex. Wala na dayun ko gidugo. Ambot basin boros ko.He cried and wanted me he wanted to stop me from going there he was worried kinsa mag alaga nako I don’t have friends and family there to help me. he told me I’m not seeing my ex wife we never meet for more than 10 years I can file a divorce para naa nakoy certificate and we can marry, 

“Are you crazy?! I’m married! 

“ no you’re not married you never submitted to your embassy and provincial district or municipal office. 

“But I’m married nevertheless.”

FF So the Thai guy and my family sent me to the airport and we waived our last goodbye. Nag hug ko ni thai guy kay mao na ata to amo last pagkita.

So the time came that I left my stable job just to go to his country. I wanted to see what’s life there. My friends and parents discouraged me to go. But how would I know if won’t go there. I won’t have a testimony to tell. 

So I sold my things and left. My route was Toot to Myanmar 🇲🇲 And then we stayed a night there kay there was a technical error sa plane. I stayed at Novotel amd I was carrying my big luggages mga 30 kilos dako siya nya on my way to my room naay gamay na stairs so I carried my luggage’s and then naay dogo nigawas. Nga murag tibogol. Hala baby kaha namo to ni thai guy? Idk wala pajud koy napkin and wala pod ang hotel napkin. So mga other parties ra ako gamit and I bought napkins sa airport na. I flew with Emirates and arrived in Dubai. One last stop to finally arrive to his country. Na hold pa jud ko kah abi guro mag maid ko sa Saudi or neighboring countries . Mao to I showed our authenticated marriage certificate and visa. After all the hustles and stuff I finally arrived in tooot! Sa pag land and passport control ako na jud ge prepare akong self . “ forget Thailand. Forget Thai guy.” 

 My husband was there waiting for me smiling and he was so happy and me too! Coz finally ,right? At peace nako.

I met his family. All of them can speak English except his mother.

Big house. Big family. But they all have their own families. 3 floors ila balay naay rooftops.

We went around the places it was cold it was snowing wowwwwwww so this is how it feels like? Freezing cold? Lol I spent the new year there it was 2020. But unfairness bitaw my dear readers, akong bana na changed. He wasn’t the man I knew when we were in Thailand. He was calmer and I saw in his face na comfortablmsiya dili siya ga worry. Na bootan. We never had a fight nor argument when I was there.   

But 

BUT…….. it wasn’t ok :( there were turn off events that I really didn’t like.

I sought some teaching jobs but small salary Lang. But I was willing to accept it. In my 3 months of staying there of course cge mi j*r2 kay winter what else to do? Toink.

Everytime we do it mag hunahuna ko ni thai guy para Lang jud ma satisfied ko. :( I’m sorry. Hays 

So Mao to nay time nga ga away2 sila family kay ang iya igsoon wala gi bayad ang money para kurente so naputlan sila grabeha what a life. There was also a time nga gibundak niya ang AC kay iyang sister ga minaldita. So nihilak ko sa ila atubangan kay na hadlok na shocked ko mao na stop ila away kay gi shush ko niya. And he said “pasalamat kinsa akong asawa dani or else gubaon nako tanan gamit” 

Wtf Unsa ni Nga life ako gisudlan I finally see everything here why inana upbringing sa ako bana kay tungod sa iya family. He was the bread winner and when I arrived murag Lin naman ang treatment sa everybody.

I would always stay in the room kay cold kaayo outside. During the day he would go to work and naa rako sa room mag himo2 sa ako hobbies. 

I heard a knock on the door . Iyang mama. And she showed mi silhig and dustpan . Manilhig daw ko sa sala and room niya. 

Ana ko “ no! I’m not a maid in this house!” 

Iyang po naka dungog 

Ana iya papa . It’s ok habibti don’t clean the dining room and her room . And he took the silhig Mao to di ko ok sa iya mama, 

Usahay iyang papa pod mag hilabot sa ako sa kusina kay I wanna cook my own food pero mag boot sa ako lotoon . Ana ko don’t bother me I don’t eat your food coz it’s too oily. Mao to murag malditahan sila nako.

Pag abot sako bana from work mag complain ko nga I don’t want to live in this house we should go somewhere. Pero wala man siya enough money kay nag back to zero baya and he sold his car and everything.it was actually my fault kay he sold everything to go to Thailand and look what happened now. Mubalik raman diay.

Nag away napod sila sa iyang brother lain Ning mga arabo mag away lain jud. Basta oi. I wanted to leave the place. Na buang najud ni. 

Everytime mag work si husband mag tawag ko ni thai guy mag update mag worry siya and stressed nakay ko kay way kurente murag atay so cold walay heater mamatay ko dagto. May man sila anad nag winter. It was my first time and not a good one na experience. 

I kept on wearing my poker face. Pretending I’m happy. I love my husband but I don’t like this place. Maybe I’m not ready to be a wife yet. Maybe I will never be a good wife to any husband I have. Maybe I’m not really a wife material. Maybe karma nako ni sa akong mga bad habits.Maybe.

I stayed there for 3 months and sa 3rd momth naa nay rumor about sa COVID-19. So I was worried and this month by the way ga sugod panglagas ako hair. I think na stressed jud kog ayo, kay abnormal jid daghan kaayo hair. While I was there pod ga apply2 ko online sa mga school sa Thailand kay I was planning to go back. I don’t wanna stay longer na. I miss my freedom. I miss going to places on my own. I miss riding my Mororbike and go to places.I miss everything my friends family work.

I had some interviews online pod. So naay schools nga nag accept nako but sa Bangkok. I wanna go back to where I came from. I shared this problems to Thai guy and he said “ leave that place and come back here I will take care of you. I knew it was wrong but old why I accepted his offer. So he booked a ticket for me to go back to TH.

Tbh guys, I didn’t have a plan to leave my husband. I just wanted to go back to TH. I told my husband na I’ll go back first and you follow me and we will stay there. He wouldn’t allow me. Pero I made sure na he will allow me. I’m just glad na he’s not controlling me like a control freak. I’m glad he told me “ if you’re happy there then go and I will just follow you even tho my heart is breaking” nakahilak ko guys. For the nth time ako napod siya ge betray. And he really hates cheating kay mao na gihimo sa iyang ex gf. Nalooy ko niya man but I replay had a clear vision na INWILL just use Thai guy to be able to go back and then I’ll find a job and he can follow. 

Ug sa dihang ni spread out na ang rumor sa corona virus. We were Knick buying alcohol , gloves and masks. He said don’t go back to Thailand it’s dangerous. Pero fldetermined jud ko im gonna he stuck here and I won’t let that happen. 

So Mao to nagpakilooy siya nga di ko balik nga we will just stay sa iya country. But I couldn’t. Idk :( I didn’t like the life. It’s not what I used to be . Everything is different. He sent me to the airport with a broken heart. I’m leaving my husband. What a terrible wife am I. :( but I assured him na someday we’ll be together again. Nalooy ko sa akong bana :( dagto nako na realized nga mangtas kaayo ko. Selfish. All because I didn’t like it there and di ko gusto ma trap dagto na place 😭 

Gihatod ko niya with his friend and gahilak ra jud siya while hold sa ako kamot and kissing my hands and praying nga I will cancel my flight. I’m so sorry. But I’m doin this for the both of us. Enough na nga naka bisit ko on this place at least for experience.

We were at the airport na and we said our goodbyes. I was sad nga happy pero mostly sad kay I will leave him. 

So from toot to Muscat,🇴🇲 Oman. Na declare na ilang airport na Dili mi mag check in sa ila airport hotels kay tingod sa covid. So na stressed kog maayo and gabkavad ako ulo so nag take konoaracetamol kay praning pod ko sa corona. Na delayed amo flight so I stayed I mean all of the passengers stayed at the airport. Ako nangita nako daan ug spot to sleep. Usahay mo mata ko kay init they won’t turn on the ACS so singot. I went to the their toilets and bathrooms and wala May shower so ang sprinkler akong gihimo shower bahala namo diha basta makaligo ko. Ok na. 

After nako ligo naay ga tanaw2 nako nga guy black guy pero taga pman ang arabic speaking. So wala rako paki kay busy ko ngita connection to call my husband na I was in a crazy situation so Mao to he tried to help but it didn’t work. We ended our call and I slept.. yowoooooo naay nitapad nako nga arabo nga tambokon hi storya3 ko niya abi guro nga iya ko madala. So I told him nga “ where can I buy medicine? Coz I’m pregnant and I’m dizzy” so he was taken aback ah you’re married? I said yeah he’s in ___. Oh ok sorry. So he left.

And then I sent a message to Thai guy na I’m in Oman na and tomorrow ako flight to Bangkok he was so happy and at the same time worried sa ako. So i slept and finally when the morning came flightna nako. I could hear familiar language . Ahhhh thai people. Daghan pod diay thai sa Oman ko? Amazing.

Pag abot nako sa Bangkok I felt like home. Grave ang temperature check maygani wala ko hilanti. Went to the passport control and finally I got in. It was so crazy kay ako diay luggage toa pa sa Oman niya ako naa nakog TH. Wow kaayo no? So I declared it as lost and they took my luggage back to Th so all good.

When I took the domestic flight to the south ge welcome dayun ko niya.

He said oh you become white. I replied” maybe because of the snow I always stayed at home” charut 

So Mao to the same day I arrived the same day nag jerbox (March 18) ana siya “ Wa koy Pali if mag kuan mo basta love kaayo tika and happy ko nibalik ka for me”

Sa ako huna2 gi gamit ra tika Ora maka balik ko and maka work and leave you again kay ako paanhion ako bana. Until March 27 nisakitwakong pus on kay dog onon na guro ko. Kay imagine since january til March 27 wla pako dog a. Samok kaayo Ning PCOS jud. So dani sa Th naa sila medicine na pampadogo herbal siya murag alcohol maka hubog so I bought it and after ana pagka pila ka minutes nahsakita ako pos on tapos nag dagana ko sa hagdan kay naay ni abot delivery sa ubos. So gasakita na jod sko tiyan. 

Di na nako na antos so we went to the doctor . He checked my urine and pak POSTIVE!

Na shocked ko, mas na shocked si thai guy, Hala Hala yaowoooooo!