"All To Well" RESPONSE

Good Day everyone I'm Parker, I'm the guy from Solanna's confession which is entitled All Too Well. I'm not really a fan of this page but my sister Mary just sent me the confessions of Anna or should I say Solanna and to my surprise she's really pertaining to me. Please hide the identity of my sister because I'm using her own 

 account and bare with the flow of my confession because I'm not good at it. I'm Parker and today I'm going to share a little confession of our story that happened many years ago. I don't think that I still need to describe myself because Anna already describe it very well. So for now let's take a look back of what happened years ago when I met her. 

I saw her from a poster on their school, the poster says congratulations from winning on a certain national contest. I looked at her picture she was smiling that time and I can see that she is really glad. I was impressed on that little girl, little girl because she is 4 years younger than my age. Then suddenly I just literally saw her from a friend suggestion on Facebook but I didn't dare to add her. Months passed when suddenly Freya texted me that she wants to hangout with us and she wanted to introduce a new friend that she met from another university. I have practice on basketball that time so I planned to just met her new friend then after that I'm going to attend our weekly practice for basketball. Then I met Solanna, this time in person. She was nice to me

 that she even give her hands but I didn't accept it. Yes I didn't treat her nice that time. I still don't know her yet, so I think I shouldn't be nice at her. Rude right? That was me back then, rude, brutal have a bad temper but things suddenly change when I met her. We got close and I got to know her even more, she was always fun to hangout, a quiet little girl but with a big heart and has many corny jokes nga balon. I'm not really open when it comes on my personal life but it was too late because I already told Solanna everything, about my family issues, my ambitions and dreams in the future, even nonsense things about myself. I don't know what's with her but she was like my human diary, and I was like her human dictionary. I teach her Science or English sometimes, her top priority is to finish school. One time I tried to joke at her about having a crush on me but she just suddenly answered "I won't never have a crush on you Parker never" I don't claim myself as a handsome or attractive man but can she be nicer saying that? Kidding but yeah that was exactly what she said to me years ago. I knew that she is not a easy to get girl, she has many principles in life and she has that quote stock on her mind which is "go after dreams not people", but I was actually liking her. I know that wasn't for friendship, it was a romantic feeling that I can't explain. I even denied it many times on myself but I just woke up one day that I'm staring to get jealous when she talked about guys that tried to get her number and constantly adding her on Facebook. I stayed quiet, she's 17 that time she's still a minor so I decided, that if I still have feelings for her then I will try to court her after college. So I start dating other girls. Rachel was fine, but we didn't last long because she broke up with me and her reason was she still love her ex, so I respect her decision. Our break up wasn't really that emotional. 

I called Solanna about it but she just told me that she's busy about her academics, well looks like my human diary is not available. I joined on a organization when I met Axel, he told me that he like Solanna and he want a double date with her, together with Thrina. I knew what will Solanna's reaction but I just let Axel shoot his shot. Solanna was quite for the whole time on our double date, she wasn't really comfortable with having a date to someone so I guess this will be the last date for Axel. I also met Thrina on that organization, she is a mature woman and we are both graduating student that time so we kinda talk about adulthood and she confessed that I was her long time crush, I don't know how to reject her nicely without having her hurt but she just wanted to let me know her feelings and keep my heart open for her. I told Solanna about it and she told me about giving Thrina a chance, that I should try to court Kathrina. I was got pissed, she was really pushing me on a other girls, she really can't see my efforts and gesture for her. Solanna was like a cold hearted woman. 

So I tried to date Thrina, if that's what she wants then fine I will court her and make her as my girlfriend. So I tried to court Thrina but she doesn't want to undergo courting stage. She want us to be official. We became in a relationship, Kathrina was a sweet and caring girlfriend , she always make time for me even if she is busy and she's very understanding. Since she was my girlfriend so I diverted all my time for her because she deserved it. Our relationship was smooth on our first month when suddenly she became paranoid and she always compared her self on other girls, but I became a understanding boyfriend and assure that I love her. I did love her, I learned to love her that I didn't even bother to contact to Solanna and my friends anymore. I was just focussing on her. But then suddenly my Daddy called me and ask about my plans after graduating college. He told me that he's willing to support me if I want to work at their hospital or going to med school after taking the MTLE. 

At first, i declined Daddy's offer, I told him that I should asked my Lola about it so as my biological mother. I ask my mother and she told me that I should go and accept the offer of my dad, my stepfather was even glad that finally I'm going to be out of their lives. My reason why I stayed for almost a half of my life at my Lola's place because I want to help my mother taking care about my little sisters even if her husband didn't treat me ask his own son. Mary and Cheska is now grown up so I think they don't need a Kuya, they can protect themselves. I'm going to choose myself. 

So when I receive a message from Solanna after almost a month, that she wanted to meet up with our squad, I immediately asked permission to Thrina if I can go with my friends. At first Thrina got so mad that she want to cut my relationship with my friends, she's always like that but I explained to her that I need to see my friends because for a important matter.

Then I saw her at the sea side. Solanna was the only person sitting on the chair. I observed that she lose weight and her skin was pale.

 She was amazed when he saw me na naka clean cut hair style. I asked her why she lose weight and she explained what happened, I was worried about her condition but as I saw her laugh I knew that she is slowly recovering from the pain she experienced, and that afternoon I confessed my feelings for her. I saw how her eyes became watery from that moment. She told me about her feelings towards me and I was surprised when all this time she also feel the same way. But she told me na we will just be matured and just forget it. I understand why she said that because that time I'm taken to Thrina and I think she doesn't want me to break up with Thrina. She told me that It's time to move on and forget the past, and she's right. So we got to change the topic and talked about our future. We didn't have any idea what will happened but it looks like we're so sure for our future. Even marriage and having kids. 

I didn't told Solanna that I'm going to Manila to pursue my dreams. I want to let her reach her own dreams without me, I'm just going to cheer for her from afar. 

I talked to Thrina, and told her that I have a ticket to Manila and I want to break up with her because I don't think LDR will work for us. I observed that she's being a paranoid and sometimes she can't control her emotions. She kneeled in front of me and beg that I should not end our relationship and she promised that she will be a good girlfriend. She also told me that she will hurt herself if I would break up with her.

Yes I didn't, flew to Manila. No one knew that I'm staying to Manila even my closest friends and became so busy and preoccupied about my adjustments, I met my older brother and my stepmom and they treated me as a family member. After many months of adjustment I got used to na. I party at the bar meet some new friends and living fine in Manila. I was studying at the same time having fun with it. My Dad really spoiled me with fame and wealth. 

 I swear, I never cheated to Thrina, yes I meet different kinds of girls but none of them became my girlfriend. I tried to contact her sometimes and ask her if she's fine with our LDR, I also tried to asked her about my friends and Solanna and to be honest I really miss her. I know that Thrina is really having a hard time, so I decided to end it, and yeah we end it together, and I just want clarify that I didn't said bad things about Solanna especially when I read her own confession that Thrina told her about "hilomon pero bigaon". I DIDN'T SAID THAT.

So I studied hard and mixed with a little descartes and passed all the exams , requirements, shifts, restless night and millions of litters of coffee and like what they say Difficult road always lead us to beautiful destination, I became a Doctor. 

Working at the hospital was fine. I had flings that time but I didn't settle for a relationship, party almost every night and socialize with other people. 

I really miss Solanna but I didn't try to bother her. But I was really planning to go home to Mindanao and explain to her everything, and I also want to personally say sorry to Thrina. But then something happened.

We had a victory party on a certain achievement with my colleagues. Almost all the doctors and nurses was invented. I was really drunk that time and then I saw a familiar face and that was Nurse Joy, I don't have any idea what happened but my mind wasn't really functioning well when I just realized that we are starting to kiss and went to the hotel room. 

Something happened , I just woke up not wearing my clothes and found out that Nurse Joy is crying beside me.

What just happened? I literally slept with Nurse Joy, I felt guilty and immediately said sorry to her. I was really guilty and regret all the things that I did. I was so drunk and look what just happened.

"Hindi mo kaylangan mag sorry Doc, let's just forget it and please don't tell this to anyone dahil mapapatay ako ng boyfriend ko"

That was the exact words she stated and she left me at the hotel. I been engaged to sexual activities but I just really felt guilty for her, because she's still new to our hospital and the worst thing is she has a boyfriend.

After that incident I control myself from drinking, months passed I decide to book a flight to Mindanao but then suddenly Nurse Joy went to my office. She was crying holding her stomach and she give me a pregnancy test and I was surprised that it was positive. She's pregnant.

I never felt this in my entire life. I'm going to be a father any months from now. She's carrying my child. I stayed calm and talk to her nicely. This is a responsibility, I need to face this the consequences of what I did.

"Break up with your boyfriend and I will take all my responsibility for my child Joy" 

At first she was concussion then later on she agreed to it. She didn't told anyone in the hospital. She moved into our house and I take good care of her and for my future baby. I'm going to be a father, and I won't let my child experience what I been through. I will give him the perfect family that he deserved. I planned to marry Joy and maybe I would learned to love her someday.

I cancel my flight and faced my responsibility. We start to buy clothes for my baby when we found out that it was a boy, my father was so glad so as my stepmom and my brother. 

We went to ShangriLa when I suddenly meet Ryan.

" Bay?" ana ko

" Oy hala bay, ikaw man diay na? Kamusta naman ka? Ni kalit raman ka ug ka wala" ana siya

Gi pauna nako ug papauli si Joy and nag dinner me together ni Ryan

Ryan: Bay wala tika hapit na ilhan, kamusta naka? Minyo na ka?

Me: wala pa bay, pero maybe next year siguro

Ryan: maayo bay, bitaw dugaya naman nato wala nagkita oi

I explained to Ryan what happened, he's one of my close friend so I told him everything, sugod ni larga ko sa Manila.

He congratulated me and told me that he's now a Teacher and married. While Freya is now a engineer, Venlee is studying for his master degree sa States, and Solanna just graduated on Accountancy. 

I was curious about how is Solanna doing after all I'm still concern for her and it's hard to admit that I miss her so much.

Ryan: She is now in a relationship, gipakilala man niya iyang uyab and the guy is fine, engineer and came on a decent family.

Me: ni approved na iyang parents? Nga mag uyab² siya?

Ryan: Siguro, pero I think that was his first boyfriend. Bay kabalo ka nga after ka ni larga kay ni try biya ug adto si Solanna sa inyoa, nagka storya man sila sa imong manghud pero after ato wala na dayun siya ni try ug pangita nimo.

Wala ga dugay si Ryan kay gisugo ra siya sa iyang misis to buy food para sa ilaha anak, taman ra daadto among pag storya ug ni hangyo ko niya nga pwede dili lang siya mag hisgot ni Solanna nga ga kita mi inig uli niya sa Mindanao.

Months passed and finally Joy give birth to a healthy baby boy, but sad to say Joy didn't survive, she didn't told me nga naa diay siya laing sakit. Akong gi basol akong kaugalingon that I can't believe na wala siya. I was hurt, I failed as a father. I can't give my child a complete family, I failed to protect Joy. I was planning to marry her and spent my future with her because I learned to love her even if that was just a short period of time.

I'm blessed to have a supportive family and yes I overcome the hardship of being a single Dad. As of now my baby is turning two this year. After all those things that happened to my life I'm still grateful about everything. As of now I'm single and no more flings because I have now my top priority and that's my son.

To Solanna, I'm overwhelmed about all those wonderful memories we shared before. I'm still hoping that one day we will be able to talk about all those things. I'm now a father Anna but I don't have a wife, it's funny that I used to tell you back then about sa grocery store nga ayaw pag expect inig mag kita ta ug diaper and gatas akong dala but this time mag expect na jd ka kay kana na permanente akong paliton sa grocery. My son already know you, I always told him about you, and he already saw our old photos , i hope that one day ma meet ninyo ang usag usa. I'm sorry kay nilakaw ko nga wala na nanghid, hoping after nako ma send ni akong confession mag ka communicate ta balik. I miss you Anna, you always remind me of the sun because I know that you're so obsessed with it, and just like the sun you always shine. I will forever admire you.

I guess it's time to say goodbye, we already arrived at the end of my confession. Thank you so much UCFB and to my sister Mary. Stay safe everyone and God bless.

-Parker