"You ended up just like everyone else"
(SPG)
- I was wounded when you came. I was a victim of bullying because of my sex scandal.
Hi reader! Call me suzuka. The lover of nobita. Here's my story and please don't hate me because it's too long. I live somewhere here in mindanao.
Let me go back from the start when you and I first met. I was walking alone to the canteen when you suddenly appreared infront of me. You flashed a smile and offered a shakehands. I am about to laugh but managed to control it, for I was a transferee in your school and didn't want to make any new friends. I avoided you but, I didn't know what was gotten into your mind when you suddenly shouted 'Nice meeting you!' and you ran away. I swear it was embarrasing, because everybody was looking at me. I had no idea that was the start of our story together.
In school, everybody knew me as an 'empty girl'. I had no friends and they had never seen me smile. Though, plenty of men there had a crush on me but I chose not to entertain them. Call me slut, but I have a sex scandal. My parents knew it, so they decided to transfer me to another school and i thought it would help me to refresh myself and be better. Wanna know why who spread it? It was my girl bestfriend and the boy from my sex scandal? He was my boyfriend and instead of protecting me, he turned his back on me and transfered to another town.
Good thing, my new school did not know anything about it. My life at my new school gave me hope that finally, I am free from any judgements. Three months had passed, and I learned to open up myself again. I created new friends. One night, I was in my bed, surfing net, an unfamiliar name suddenly popped up on my friend request. At first I was, reluctant to confirm it but I had no idea why I suddenly visited your timeline and then I realized, it's you. It was you.
I accepted your request and we became close in social media. Technically, you were the one who messaged me first. It all started with hi and hello and boom we ended up exchanging flowery words and sweetness . But, don't get me wrong guys, we were still not close in personal considering the fact that we were just schoolmates.
But to make it short, we became sweetheart. Yes, I fell inlove with you. You managed to wreck the wall I built. All of the pain and sadness I had gone through, you exchanged it with hope and dreams that we promised to do in the future. You knew all of my secrets except my scandal. Yes, I was a coward that time and instead of telling it to you, I kept it to myself since I'm used of getting stabwounds.
It was our anniversary. Everything was planned in my place. I prepared foods, and put balloons that almost consumed the house. My hands were shaking, and I was ill at ease at that moment, I cannot think properly. Cause finally, I decided to tell it to you-my scandal. I envisioned you, getting disgusted of me because the girl you love is actually a slut. Finally after long hours of waiting, you finally came and you got suprised. I greeted you with a kiss and started our meal. We laughed and laughed and reminisced our memories together.
We were done eating, when you suddenly touched my hand and asked me if there's anything wrong. I just answered you with tears and I broke down. You were so worried so you hugged me.
"Langga, naa koy sala nimo" i said while crying
"huh? Unsa man langga? Makulbaan man sad ta nimo"
"Okay ra langga, kung di ko nimo ma pasaylo, pero always remember kung unsa tika ka love"
"unsa diay na langga? Tell me kung unsa ang naga bother sa imo" you said while brushing my hair
and then I finally said it. I confessed everything to you. Everything, kung gi unsa ko pag betray sakong bestfriend, sa akong ex boyfriend ug sa tanang tao, nga i thought mu accept nako even at my worst but they left.
You did not react for a moment instead you just stared at me. I can hear our breathe together and silence was making me to feel more nervous. You did the opposite I envisioned of you. You just hugged me and carressed my cheek. You left me of your words nga dili nako malimtan even of my last breath diri sa kalibutan.
"It does not matter anymore langga. I have loved you for who you are. Let your past be burried and focus to our future. Kanang pain nga imong ginabati karun langga, akoa ng ilisan ug happiness. I love you everyday and forever"
That night was the happiest day of my life. We exchanged heat together and finally gave up myself to you. I was just so happy that I found the man. The right man that will fill the void in me.
Yes, after that day our relationship got stronger. You never failed to make me happy. You were my bestfriend and also my soulmate. Until one day, my ex boyfriend, came back. He saw me at my school. It was actually Cluster Meet that time and he was a basketplayer. Let's just call him Ken.
I swear it was akward, when he suddenly walked to me and hugged me unexpectedly. I got shocked for a moment and returned to reality, as I pushed him away and said "Don't you dare!"
"Ngano man ka ingun ana? Nakalimot naka nako" wow I wonder asa to niya nakuha para iingun to niya sa akoa.
Akoa siyang gibira sa isa ka corner, nga wala maka kita sa amoa.
"Coming from you pa talaga? From the man i trusted the most who left me hanging in the air?!" I screamed
"Sorry lang gud (insert my name) wala nako to tuyua" he tried to hold my both hands pero akong gi refused.
"You're forgiven but I won't forget it. Didto naka kaw, kay magdula pamo" even though di pa jud nako siya fully gi forgive pero ako na lang to giingun para mahuman ang story. and then suddenly he hugged me so tight.
I swear, I tried to escape from him but he was so strong. To the point that I cried. All those memories from my past, came back. The pain and betrayals. Everything! I just chose to close my eyes that time and in one snap nakita na lang nako siya, naa na sa yuta. My langga saved me. Good riddance kay ken, because my langga puched him in the face to the point that it caused a scene and everyone huddled.
I mouthed him "I am sorry" but he just dragged me to another place.
"Unsa man to nga drama ? Ngano man to ?!" he shouted at me
"It was my ex boyfriend langga. I am sorry, wala nako to gigusto" my voice was shaking and people around us were looking at us pero wala nakoy pake
"Love pa nimo? Ingna ko, para maka pangandam sab ko diri" after that, he left. He left me crying.
One week had passed and we were still not okay. He endured not to talk to me for how many days even on chat. None.
I wanted to approach him but there was something in me that time that is stopping me from talking to him. Until one night ken, send me a message that almost killed me.
To be continued....
Ps: I am sorry guys if this is cutted, I swear it's long.
Pps: Thank you for reading
Ppps: sorry for my poor grammar
Suzuka
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