Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough

Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough

I’m in a long-term relationship,

8years na kami ng boyfriend ko. He’s working abroad and I’m here working in Cebu.

Pero we were originally from Ilo-ilo. I feel na mhal niya ako and ako naman mahal ko din sya. We were in good terms with both families. Ok lahat samin. Except the fact that he never makes surprises for me, sa 8 years naming wala syang naibigay kahit isang rosas mn lang sakin.Pero alam ko sa sarili ko na hindi importante ang mga bagay na yun but I usually get jealous dun sa mga babae na sinusurprise ng mga boyfriend nila . Pero ok pa din, I did not mind nlng. Most especially nasa LDR kami kailangan strong diba, so I wake up each and every day with a smile na alam kong my nagmamhal sakin, na alam kung my concern sakin kahit malayo xa. Open ako sa kanya, I always talk about marriage and having kids. Pero palaging sagot nya is “hindi pa dw xa handa , susunod nlng dw if mkapagpatayo na ng sariling bahay at stable na lahat” so na realize kona tama nga namn xa, He promised me that we will tie the knot at the age of 30, 26 na ako ngayon , so for more years, sabi ko sa sarili ko, kaya to! Kahit LDR kakayanin. I’m trying to be positive with all the negativities, “walang forever, may iba na yun” I always hear people telling me those things, more often in a joking manner nga lg nmn. So fast forward na tayo after 1.5years na hindi kmi ng kita he is finally going home. So I planned to surprise him. Pumunta akong NAIA dahil alam ko nmn ang flight schedule nya. Nag antay ako , dederisto siya ng Cebu to meet me. So I also booked a ticket sa same flight na sasakyan niya papuntang cebu. While I was waiting nkita ko na siya malayo pa lg Just I’m about to stand up and tumakbo para akapin sya, I saw a girl holding his hand tightly, maganda yung babae , super nka ayos (by the way ako yung tipong hindi marunong mag make up). Upon seeing them I tried to hide, hindi ko alam kung pagsasampalain ko cla, pero nsa airport kami eh. I don’t want to make a scene. Pero tumutulona yung luha ko, tiningnan ako nang katabi kong mtanda tinanon kung ok ako, I just nodded. Crowded ang departure area so malamang hindi ako nila ako nkita. Nkita ko silang nglakakd na nagtatawanan papunta sakin so I switch seat, tumalikod ako. And the y sat down sa bakanteng upuan sa likod ko. They are happy, my bitbit pang boquet yung babae bigay cguro nag boyfriend kong hindi malng nkapagbigay ng isang rosas sakin. And the tuine of the girl’s voice change. Nagging seryoso. “Basta sabi mo ha? You will just go to Cebu to fix things with her and break up with her ha? I will just stay in the hotel there” “Excited nako sa aksal natin babe” Can you imagine? Talagang tumulo luha ko ULIT. I have no words to express the feeling I felt at the time na nrinig ko yun. Isasama pa talaga nya yung babae sa Cebu. My gosh I felt like all the anger in the world ay sumapi sakin pero d ko mailabas. Hanggang nkasakay na nag plane, hindi nya pa rin ako nakita kasi nug boarding na eh I ran para mauna sa pila and they were late kasi they are busy pa talking. Hanggang lumapag na nang Cebu, I got out the plane immediately at umuwi sa boarding house and then dun na tumulo lahat ng luha ko. Kahit gusto ko nang huminto, tumutulo pa din eh. Nag vibrate yung phone ko, It was him, asking me to meet him sa Ayala for a dinner. So pumnta ako, nkita nya ako, And asked me bakit dw ako umiyak (kasi klaro pa talaga sa mga mata ko eh) so I took a deep breathe and sinabi ko lahat sa kanya. Tinanong ko sya bat nya nagawa sakin yun. Hindi sya makasagot. I stared at him ( bakit-mo –nagawa-sakin-to look) then I left. That was the last time I saw him. Hindi ko sya binlock . hinyaan ko lg. I’m 28 now, 2 years nlng sana no ikakasal na kmi? But I’m happy now, focus nlng sa career , friends at family tsaka TRAVEL. 

Sorry if masayadong mahaba

Georgina/ UP/ RN