“Hold unto me, cause i’m a little unsteady”
A unique love story by El.
Hi everyone!
I have always been an avid reader of this page even way back high school pa and yes I admit, I posted my previous heartbreak before here just to loosen up the pain. At least na gaan2 akong kalooban ato hehe. But anyways, now is a different story and I hope all of you would enjoy it as much as I do :)
This love story of mine is quite unique. Way back 2018, I have visions na I can truly make it in social media, you know kanang maka earn gud ka with the use of social media. By September 2018, I started pursuing my goal (dili lang kaayo nako ispecify unsa ni ky medyo ubay2 jd nakahibaw ani) and I was happy bisan if the audience was a few only, I was contented. Later ato, nawala kog gana kay kato na app dili na siya updated niya mag hang2 na siya if gamiton nako so I stopped. I had a lover diay ani na time and I really wanted out na so by December ga download ko og mga dating apps and naka chamba ko og download og same na app sa akong gi use before but in a better version. I gained a lot of views on my first try and by tomorrow, I was signed on an agency. Fast forward - A few months after, I really did earn 5-digit tops. It was good actually and this is where when things went downhill sa akong love life. My lover at that time was really in love with me and nakigbuwag ko by the first day of the month of my birthday and in the day of my birthday, nag threat akong ex na mag suicide daw siya. I was shocked and really terrified. I still had communication with that person kay I don’t want na kalitan siya og biya unya ma crazy unya siya. While I was using the app, gaining friends, followers and, views I met a man. I saw him pass by my stream every once in a while but at some point, while I was feeling depressed because I had followers who turned my back against me, he gave in and came up so we had the chance to talk and the viewers were also able to see him as well. Since tag-hirap ko aning buwana, he comforted me and that was the time na I get to know him na. He’s 27, from Cebu but is working at the Middle-east while I’m a college student from a university here in Cebu pd. Na bilib siya nako kay naningkamot ko para maka sustain sa akong needs and supplies sa school since grabe ka tihik ang nag provide nko na 100 ra ang baon and mu lusot pako og three cities para maka adto sa school. Ing’ana ka lisod akong life grabe kay di jd sila ganahan maka gasto nako og dorm bisan naa’y kaya. Sad. That’s why naningkamot jd ko para naa ko’y ma ako bahala na. He shared his story na he was a scholar back in college, and he is very smart. Running for cum laude gd sya sauna but wala lng na approve kay di siya tig sud sa klase kay lage nanarbaho pd siya kay walay support ang parents or anyone from his family. Siya ra kayod tanan hangtod nahuman siya. Sa iyang ka sad, wala gd siya ni attend og graduation ky kabaw sya walay mu tunga para niya and ma suya rasad siya sa uban classmates na bongga kaayo og mga regalo such as brand new car and house. That’s why naningkamot jd siya para makuha niya ang future na iyang gusto. I was amazed while he shared his journey.
“I want a man like him”
I remembered thinking. I was fascinated by his principles and beliefs that was why I adored him. I couldn’t say na crush nako siya but I had my eyes on him at that time. Little did we know, daghan na diay naminaw sa among little chika sa akong stream. Na abot na sa point na someone asked, “What if kamo diay para sa usa’g usa?”, he laughed I remembered and he said, “ay di jd na pwede kay grabe kaayo ko ka busy and even if I wanted to, I know it wouldn’t work” while I also answered, “I just got out of a relationship and I want to focus on myself and my dreams lng sa. If it arrives, then it arrives”. That was my principle and besides, I believe that I shouldn’t look for love because love has to find me. While the viewers were kilig and busy sigeg tupo2 namo, akong ex na hanggaw na diay sa comment section. Ga tupo2 napd siya namo and he went crazy after my stream. Ven, the man that I had a conversation with, messaged me and asked if buwag naba jd mi niya and I told him the truth and said yes. He didn’t ask for more details but he told me na gi away na siya sa akong ex while sya wala ra niya patuli. Diba, how mature? Who wouldn’t adore a mature man right?
After some time, he vanished for a few days so I messaged him and asked if he was okay. He was sick and had a minor lock jaw because of stress and I advised him to go to the hospital and pa confine so that he will be taken care of. Thankfully he listened. A few weeks after, I was invited to a tagay session sa IT Park which is totally not my scene at all. In respect lng to sa akong college friend kay birthday. We were talking at that time and I even sent him a selfie. By tomorrow, I remember I was at SM and I was waiting in line for a ride in mybus. I jokingly told him, “ngano diay sige kag message nako? Ibog man jd ni siya nako ba hahahahaha” and for some reason ni reply siya og “ngano diay? Wa diay ka naibog pd?” I was taken a back ato and replied, “Ambot lang hahahaha” There was no confirmation after that. We just kept on talking and na abot sa point nga ni ask siya why not in messenger na so I gave him my account and he messaged me there. Nahibong nlng ko na nawala nalang among convo and ni chat siya nako balik sa lain app na ni msg daw akong ex. I told him na wala pa nako na change akong password kay naa mi kasabotan sa akong ex na bantayan ko niya. Stupid, yes I know but ni sabot rasd siya so I decided to give him another (dummy) account of mine which is used nako while magtalk mi sakong ex kay tago mn gd mi, i’m not open to my parents na nag-igat2 na diay ko hahaha so we talked ngadto, and later on nag call to call napod mi. Until next month came and I was given the opportunity to perform on stream. That was my first time and thousands of viewers across the world can see my performance so I asked na if it’s okay to do a private stream, just to check if my background is alright, ang lighting and all that. He helped me a lot actually and I also did a private live myself without him kay I was changing outfits kung unsa’y bagay nako ma costume. Even if it was a private stream, I forgot to turn the camera while I was changing so I accidentally removed my clothing leaving me with my breasts to see sa stream which thankfully walay maka kita because it’s private but the app is very strict so I had a 24hour ban so I couldn’t perform on my main account. All my viewers, I had no contact with except Ven. Siya ra tawn ni tunga while nag sayaw2 ko cute kaayo cause I wore a cheerleader costume with pompoms pa. He was very supportive really, even went home from work even if it’s not his time to leave pa. How thoughtful diba? And because of everything that has happened, it brought us more closer together. We talk everyday, every afternoon whenever I come home from school and by late evening night, we have intimate conversations about life.
One day while I was at SM again, I suddenly asked him, “unsa diay ta? sige namn tag storya eveyday noh.” He then replied, “Friends. Close friends.” For some unknown reason, na sakitan kog kalit and I don’t know why. I wasn’t hoping for an ‘I like you’ answer, it was just out of curiosity lang. We’ve been talking non-stop, not just through messages but even video calls na. So I completely don’t understand why I was hurt. I remember so vividly na I wanted to cry pa gane ato and ni sakit akong chest and I knew at that point na I like him na, I was falling in a very deep unknown hole and I don’t know if it’s a good idea or not. But somehow, maybe he felt it because he started to reassured me that we should just take things slow and just trust one another. I liked that but hated it pd. I really didn’t understand why. After such time, we had a really intimate conversation again in the late evening and I opened up to him and said, “Grabeha nuh, days palang. 12 days I think? But I feel like i’ve known you for years na.” He agreed and said, “Bitaw. It’s like three years nata kaila but 12 days pa diay. Unsa naman ni oy? Hayss” and ambot lang unsay na kaon niya ato ni pahirit siya og ingun, “I love you” I gasped and felt shocked jd. After ato, gi kasab’an nako siya. This isn’t a movie. Life isn’t a movie. You cannot fall in love with someone in a span of 12 days. Unbelievable. So I replied, “Ha 12 days pata nag ila, pwede diay na? If mu sulti gane kag ing’ana dapat sure ka sa imong feelings kay I don’t say that raba because saying such things like that is something serious. Dili na siya angay binoangan” after ato, he kept quiet and went on na sa among gi storyaan na topic.
After such time, naka realize najd ko na i’m really falling for this dude. Kabaw ba mo, ga ampo2 pko sa Sto. Niño, ga luhod2 intawn ko nangayo jud ko og sign if pwede lang gyud tagaan ko niya kay na scared jud ko. Usahay rajd ko mahigugma pero if makasuway pd tinudanay jd walay binoang2. Nangayo ko but dili siya specific basta ang akoa lang kung mu hatag siya, makahibaw jd ko nga mao ni akong sign. Later that night, ni kalit bitaw na og open up si Ven out of nowhere, like very off topic kaayo. Ni tug’an siya nga di jud siya mu tolerate og pamastos sa babae. In any way shape or form. Sexual or abusive actions, mu ngitngit jd iyang panan’aw ana. Mahadlok gud siya basin makapatay pa siyag tao. Grabe kaayo siya ka against ana. To be honest, I am a victim of sexual harassment for multiple instances na. First was from the boyfriend of my mom. Grabe ka bastos, mag hatag2 og kwarta nako para makita nako nga mag buhat syag daotan sa iyang kawgalingon. As in grabe. Horror kaayo akong teenage life. Akong nerbyos dili jud mawala if naa siya but thankfully na stop og kalit when a thought came to mind, “What if it’s too late na? Diha naba ko mu reklamo?” At that time, mu supak najud ko hapit pa nako ma labayi og baso and saksakan pd ta nako og ballpen or kutsilyo. Grabe akong hatred ato labi na ni sumbong ko sa akong lola and gi ingnan rako og, “Ayaw paghimo2 og storya oy, siya baya ga gasto tanan diri” diba? Unsa ka horror? Hasta family member traydor kay labi pod diay hangol og kwarta maypa siya nalang gi ing’ato dili ako. Bastos! A few instances pd sa akong cousins, mu attempt jd og buhat og something. Grabe hadlok. That’s why dili jud ko tig laag, or mu interact with boys my age. Di pd ko hing barkada kaayo. Mao na if naa ko’g ganahan kutob rajd internet kay di kaayo ko social butterfly. Dako nako og edad but grabe akong trust issues sa mga tao, dili kaayo ko mu pasailig dayon mao pag ingon jd ni Ven ana, naka ana jd ko nga, “This is it. This is the sign that i’ve prayed for. Thank you Lord!” but at this point, dili pajud ko convinced. Nangayo pakog two more signs ni Lord and ni hatag jd siya without a doubt. Paspas pajd kaayo mao I let myself fall for this man even if uncertainty lies ahead. Hays..
Weeks turned into months, and finally ako na nuon ang nag katol og ingon og ‘I love you’ ako napd ang atat kaayo mu sulti but pugong rako kay abi palang easy girl char. As usual we were talking again and I remembered na he was in a hurry kay ma late na sa work. Daghan na siyag absences and late tungod nako, nahibong nalang gud og kalit ang mga workmates niya ngano na usab siyag kalit and na kasab’an napod siya ana. While he was saying his goodbye, naa may pahirit og “I love you” nga paspas kaayo and I wasn’t able to say it back kay gi end rapod nya ang call dayon. So I asked him, “Unsa to imo gi ingon ganina? Naa lage kay gi ingon.” And deny pa sya pa limot2 effect. Char. So without hesitation, I replied through chat, “I love you too”. Kilig pd kaayo ko ato because it took us three months to say I love you. I think that’s enough for you to feel love towards someone. Igat pod kaayo diba? To think we have a nine-year gap. Mura sd og char. When he came home na, he requested to call each other ‘love’ because he didn’t want to call me by my name na kay it’s weird na. We weren’t exactly official at this point but we’re contented. He dropped hints na nga manguyab siya but I always decline because I don’t know, maybe because I haven’t met him in person yet. I just want to make sure that he’s sure of me and he’s going to become a permanent part of my life.
Life went on and he decided to create a family in the app. It consist of viewers, supporters and friends. It’s like a little group in the app where every member has the same emoji and badge. He kept inviting me to join but I declined because I was part of an international family, puro mga Canadians pd. Very nice people. But at some point, I decided to switch and became a part of them. I blew up in the app and gained a lot of money because of that. I was able to buy a new quality phone, had fake nails and eyelash extension na. In short, ni asenso inyong auntie diba. And it was because of Ven, and my hardships that payed off. During this time, I also had a lot of men courting me. Imagine, a viewer gave me a 10k worth of gift from the app. Super expensive. A boy-bestfriend that I also met in the app, would send me boxes of food and pizza basta my life was just so crazy. Kanang maka feel ka sa buhay artista ing’ana. I even have viewers who would come up to me, mga strangers na wala ko kaila and mag ask sila if ako ba to nga mag sigeg stream. It was a very stressful situation pd ni Ven because he also had doubts. I even had one supporter na would want to buy a house in Cebu so that i can stay there while he works overseas. Ing’ana siya ka crazy. But thankfully Ven, stayed very faithful and had fully trusted me along the way. Until such time, Ven’s birthday was about to come and he mentioned before na mu uliay jd siya usually if birthday niya. But little did I know he had plans. Nagpa dungog2 na siya na ‘’what if mu uli nako?” Ako sad, very oblivious mu ingon rapod og “aw oo ngano gud intawn dili oy!” And he replied, “No I mean, mu uli najd ko. For good.” Wait what????? So magkuyog najd mi? Like for good? Dili lang uli2 niya mu balik napd sya didto?? Wait what????? How crazy is my life getting diba?? Usually mga ldr, uli’on raman ka then work again but he’s plans are different from the norm. I was shocked but after all, these were all just plans. No confirmation just yet. October came and namugos jd ko dala luod2 na mu uli siya kay I really wanted to celebrate with him. But he didn’t so after a while, CONFIRMED. Mu uli si Ven by December. Crazy right? But that wasn’t so sure kay he’s venturing into a new business in Singapore and maybe he would spend months pa didto but his work will be Philippine based. Every once in a while ra siya mu adto.
Fast forward, na abot najd siyag Singapore, China and Thailand. He met different investors and partners for his new business company. Pang pelikula kaayo no? Murag correct but tinuod jd ni hasta ako di bitaw ko maka tuo. Kung hunahuna-on, akoa nlng jung bilat ang uli’on nu? Hahahaha phenomenal na guro kaayo ni nga labi ka virgin pa raba intawn nako. Bitaw, a little back story pod, akong ex ldr pd diay mi ato and na crazy pd to siya kay mu bisita jd siya nako diri sa Cebu. Grabe pd to syag tigom para maka meet nako. Dako2 pd syag gasto bitaw ambot lng unsay naa pd nako nga maboang man pd sila. Unsa nlang pd kaha si Ven nga biyaan na niya iyang life sa middle-east para maka uli lang. Unsa nalang ka importante akong bilat para uli’on? Hahahaha bitaw ga joke rako para maka katawa pd mo diha. December came and ni uli jd siya but kutob ra siya sa Zambales. Ni visit pa sa siya sa iyang family didto. He’s really frm Cebu but his father ni balik mn sa province ever since na sakit. Iyang mom diay ang pure Cebuana jd and diri mn pod si Ven ga dako ky gi kuha mn siya sa iyang lola but ever since namatay because of Cancer (rest in peace la, ako na bahala ni Ven ha? Hehe) siya nalang jud usa ga buhi sa iyang kawgalingon.
Ni agi nalang ang pasko and new year, wala jud mi tarong communication tungod sa ka busy. Even pag Christmas eve, ga meeting ghapon. Grabe. Perti na nakong simba intawn kay gi nerbyos2 intawn ko basin scam ragud ni tanan kay as in wa mi convo. Maka talk ko niya mga once or thrice in a week unya chat pajd na. Grabe na ako drama2 intawn pero no choice, busy jd siya. Nag hinay2 napod kog stream kay mura kog na depressed ato and nakabantay pd ang uban members sa family atong app na akong gi use.
January came around and his estimated date of arrival was Jan 27th. Naka ana gud ko, “omg 27 diay among monthsary ani” kay lage like I said, what date mi magkita, that would be the official date of our anniversary meaning kami najd like boyfriend-girlfriend na. Hayss. Grabe nako’g prepare sa akong makeup, suotonan, akong aura tanan. Ing’ana ko ka excited. But, something happened...
Na abot jd ang adlaw nga 27th and na abot najd siya sa Cebu. Dili siya memorable kaayo like the same sa uban ldr na magmeet sa airport, naa’y pa gakos nga dala lift2 sa air charr makasuya but sige lang. My expectations went down hill jd. Pag abot niya diri, he liked it na the next day nami magkita para maka prepare siya kung asa siya mag stay kay iyahang ate man ang nag pangita og condo for rent niya so as of now, nag stay siya sa iyang ate and maikog pd siya na magdala2 siya og bisita nga daghan napod og family members tua sa balay. So of course, while I was busy preparing ni sabot rako. No biggie kaayo kay di pd ko ganahan na basin di unya ko maka uli, unsa may ireason intawn nakooo naaaa hahaha ma opawan jd ko ni mama, matod pa raba niya wala raba’y inahan na preso ky gi opawan ang anak🤣 so mao to, excited na kaayo ko pero I had an instinct na di ma dayon ambot lang pero ako ra jd gi brush off kay maybe it’s fine, na crazy rako sigeg huna2. The next day came and ni message siya nako nga dli mi madayon. Diba? Bwisit na tag’an jd nako. Nakapamiste2 jd ko og ahat and kahilakon kaayo ko kay I felt really upset. Gi surprise siya sa iyang mga igsuon adto og Bogo, which is layo2 jd siya sa city so before siya nanghid tua napod diay sila didto. Na abot mn pd gud ang dance crew sa iyang kuya like nag mini vacation pd sila so it’s a big family celebration jd since usahay ra sila managsuon magkahiusa sa Cebu kay ga dako man sila nga puro lagyo. Si Ven naa baya sa Cebu and ang uban tua sa Zambales ga stay unya pagkadagko na duha sila tua sa middle-east and karon pajd sila nagkahiusa. Nangluod pd baya ko gamay ky wala mn lang ko gi invite hahays. Sad. Pero sige nalang sabton. After ato, pila pa sila ka days tua didto, na uli na sila and at that time, I couldn’t absent lng sa klase ky sayang ang perfect attedance, naa ma’y incentive gud mao wala jd ko mu absent. So I decided na magkita mi sa 31 na, diba ka layo2 na from 27 to 31. Sometimes I couldn’t believe how ridiculous it is na we’re breathing the same air. Naa ra siya sa Kamputhaw dapit and naa ko Talamban ga skwela. So medyo duol2 rapod. Pila ra ka minutes pagkita dba, wala jd nahitabo.
31st of January came and 2:30pm mahuman akong klase and sabot namo is 4:30 mi magkita sa Casa Verde sa Ramos. Nagdala pa intawn ko og off shoulder and jeans while ga heels pd para classy tan’awn char. Nagpa gwapa pako sa Ayala, and for some weird reason, wala rako kulbaa. Maybe because ma canceled napod and I have no feelings or whatsoever if mahitabo na. Ma numb nako kay ma paasa napd ko so I wasn’t thinking much. If mao nani, mao nagud ni. Nauna siya didto and na late ko gamay. Nag angkas ko padng didto. Funny kaayo kay nag ask ang driver ba, “Mam, okay raka diha? Mura man ka’g ni tikig gud” after ato, didto nako nakafeel og grabe ka kulba. I can really feel my heart beating from my chest. Literal I can hear it pounding kusog kaayo. Mao to ni share dayon ko, “Okay rako kuya uy. Na kulbaan lng ko gamay kay magmeet nami sa akong uyab. First time mi mag meet actually. Nag ila rami sa **** app. Unya dugay2 napd mi, gi uli jd ko ani niya” he replied, “aw mao ba mam. Sige mam kuyawa gud diay ani hahah msg lng unya nako mam if unsa basin simbako lng gd naay dautan mahitabo, at least kahibaw ko asa ka padng. Wa pajd rabay nakahibaw nga nakigkita ka niya karon” and yes, wala jud ko’y bisag usa ka tao gi sulti’an nga magkita mi. I kept it to myself. Ang uban viewers, murag kahibaw sila but wa sila kahibaw na sa 31 pa diay. Dugay2 napod baya, pila na ka adlaw ang ni labay. So na abot nko sa destination and ni naog nako. Gi ingnan kog, “Good luck mam, amping intawn!” sa driver and perti najd nakong kulbaa murag naka ingon najd ko nga mao najd diay ni??? Wait what? Hahaha juskoo!!! Pila ko ka months ga huwat and it’s finally here!!! Mahitabo na. Si manong driver, naniid pd pag panaog nako hahaha so I called him kay naa pa siya sa sulod. Ga order na siya daan while nag wait. Since na bag’ohan ko sa lugar kay dugay nako wa ka balik diri, nagpakuha ko sa may entrance gate. Finally, ni gawas siya and ahh!!!!!! He’s so bus’ok. Lami kaayo ang kaon sa Singapore siguro? Hehe pero gwapo kaayo siya, taas since 5’11 man and mga 5’3 man ko magduko jd siya while mag talk nako. I hugged him and proceeded to get inside. Yieee kilig kaayo ko nga wala ko kasabot sa akong gibati. First time diay nako makasuway og date so I kept on laughing out of nowhere and if mu inom ko og drinks, kay mahdlok ko kay basin ma tuk’an ko. My food was barely touched. I didn’t feel like eating ky grabe kaayo siya mu tutok nako and nauwaw ko. He’s very formal, dili balagbag mu storya so ni samot ko ka uwaw hahahahahaha mura jd bitaw ko’g buang ani. Siya kay na weirdan nako kay sige ko’g katawa but gipasagdan rapod ko niya. After we ate, daghan diay og sobra huhu maypa gi dala namo sa amoa hahahaha sayang gi biyaan ra namo wala nalang jd na take-out. We went outside and ni smoke siya. Sige ko’g hug niya kay grabe kaayo ka humot lami kan’on aw?? Hahaha and siya kay intimidating look kaayo ahhh ka hot oy!!! Ambot!!! So since it’s very early pa, he wanted us to go at some cafe nga pwede ma smoke’an. Kanang serene and quiet lng, kung pwede kami ra duha mag ginaksanay didto basta wala lay tao kay samokan pd siya, same mi. I hate crowded areas so we went to Bintana, somewhere in Fuente I think? I’m not sure basta duol ra sa Ramos pd. Ngit2 na pag abot namo sa we ordered cake, and a drink. Sige ko’g hug niya didto sa may bench sa gawas, under the umbrella and makita nmo na di nmo makita kaayo mi sa gawas so take advantage mi sa tinted windows. Gamay nalang mura nami ga hamog2 didto hahaha. I placed my lap in his lap as well while he rocked back and forth smoking. Ahh!!! Ka manly uy, literally a baby daddy in my eyes😍 so nag picture2 mi nag send mi sa among gc sa family namo ato na app, daghan kaayo gi kilig og sigeg kanchaw na basin naaa patay na daw si El. Hahahahaha kulba2 my heart na daw ky kami ra duha. Mga boang jd. Sige rapod mi og katawa. Since nahuman siya og smoke, he wanted to go somewhere nasd kanang dili restaurant but like a place na matambayan gud. So since from south man ko, I suggested na sa Il corso mi. Ni sakay mi og taxi and since sexy and classy man akong gi suot hahahahaha char ni pahirit pd og pangomot sa yototch pero pasagdan rapd nako. Pag abot namo, gabii na and daghan pd og tao. We didn’t order anything kay we’re very full. I brought him to the beach, katong naa’y mga stones and rocks padng sa dagat. We looked at the stars glistening and I just felt so in love at that time. Looking back, grabe na among na agi’an and we’re finally here. I couldn’t believe jud na by 2020, I would meet the love of my life. It felt so surreal. A song, by X Ambassadors, “Unsteady” was the theme of our love story that brought us both together here. He always told me before to hold unto him, kay he’s very unsteady and he just wants someone to be there for him even if things get rough in our journey. I loved that. If it weren’t for that song, I don’t know if I would hold on jd while ni adto siya sa iyang business ventures. Wala jud baya mi tarong communication ato. Mao to akong gi depressan og maayo pag December. Grabe pa kaayo akong apil og simbang gabi kay mao jd akong wish na eh love lang ko niya and dili pasakitan and hinaot dili scam tanan. Thank you Lord, mao rajud akong ma ingon atong gabhi’ona. We went to the dock, it’s like a pantalan nga gamay like a mini bridge for sa barko ana. Ni adto mi duol sa edge and we hugged so tight like it was just the two of us in the world. Seriously, kana ganing sa movie nga mawala ang tanan and kamo rajd sa world, first time ko naka experience ato with him and he also gladly felt the same way. Dugay2 pd mi sige’g hug na abtan guro og 1 hour kay ngit2 na and mga 9pm nato. We kept on hugging until he tried to kiss me. A couple of time but I get nervous everytime. After such time, I gave in and we kissed. Not a bastos kiss nga nagchula2 nami ngadto, it was just innocent and purely genuine. Good thing, dili jd siya bastos like he said. Sige baya ko’g hug niya but there was no hard-on jd na ako ma feel sa iyaha. Grabe ka tight among hug and wala jd, bisan pressed up na kaayo akong lawas niya. Wala. Ing’ana sya ka respectful. Na samot ko’g ka in love ahhh😍 why did I become so lucky? Hayss. I truly deserve a man like him. After being so reserved and picky for the longest time, gi hatag najud ni Lord akong pangandoy na laki. My dream man, hays. Grabe pd kaayo siya’g kilig ato. Na abtan nlng diay mi og naay wedding night photoshoot didto and ilang aim is didto sa among gi stayhan na dock. If wa siya kabantay sa flash, di jud mi mahuman og manghawa didto. For sure, gi picturan kd mi sa photographer kay dugay kaayo me nahuman hehe. Ganina diay, grabe kaayo akong kulba kay wala ko kahibaw kung what time ko ma uli and since in love naman kaayo ang inyong auntie, wala nako kulbai’e and wala napod ko’y plano mu uli bahala mo dha hahaha siya napd ang gi nerbyos kay gabii na. Daghan gihapon tao didto but he doesn’t like it na mauli ko og late. I changed my clothes balik sa akong school uniform para dili ko masakpan. We both parted ways, ni sakay nako’g taxi and siya pod. Hayss. Almost 11pm nako na uli may gane wala rako kasab’i kay nangatog napod sila. I couldn’t believe it! Ka lami sa love oy😍 First time nako maka experience og ingun ani. A week after, gidala nako niya sa iyang office sa fuente. Nag pa set up na siya daan sa iyang workplace before pa siya na abot diri maong naka office ra dayon. After sa iyang work, he brought mi didto sa may Lahug na cafe. Kanang padng sa busay, dayon saka lng. Sa left side, naa’y white cafe didto. Kalimot lng ko sa name but it was very nice. Clean and serene kaayo. We ordered our drinks and ate. Nagselfie2, pa cute2 and naglambing me didto. Since sexyhon mn jd ko daan, and dako’on pd ko og yototch, wa siya ka agwanta nangumot siya kay fitting nga shirt mn akong gi suot. Sa ka uwagan pd nako, gi sulod nako iyang kamot didto. Hahahaha wala man gu’y tao and naa mi sa gawas. Like sa garden dapit. Ahh ni andar nasd ko kay hot jd kaayo siya. Siya kay na kulbaan and ako birada naman oy. Naunsa naman ang virgin na El? Nawala na lage?🤣 huhu soo I opened my zipper a bit and gi sulod nako iyang kamot. Naka tingle2 siya gamay and ni andar najd akong pagkauwagan and siya napod. Naka huna2 na siya na mag check in mi og hotel but of course, gi nerbyos ko oy wala ko mu sugot. Ana pa siya na matog nalang ta didto dala hikap2 gamay but he’s not going to do anything beyond that but of course wala ko mu sugot kay pagabii na. It’s already late afternoon and hapit na mu out ang usa niya ka employee didto. So I decided na adto nlng ta sa office standby. Kami naman lng pd duha. So it’s fine. Wala pa’y gasto’onon and we can stay as long as we want. When we arrived, padng na gawas ang employee and ga uwag2 nako didto. Huhu. When the employee went out, wala na. Dritso kiss nami dayon. I didn’t even know what I was doing really. As in, wala jud ko’y idea kung okay ba to akong kiss kay virgin na virgin pajd lage ko. I took off my bra and he caressed my breasts ahhh ka lami! Then he also removed his jeans as well. Basa na kaayo ko ani and siya kay na crazy napod. I can see it in his eyes na nagdemonyo mode siya og kalit. Since di paman jd ko ganahan, nag dry hump nlng mi and gi finger ko niya og maayo. Saba2 gd ang office og ahat and thank goodness, mingaw ra. I was having the time of my life until he stopped and told me, “Love, di nako kaya buhaton ni nimo. I don’t want you to lose your virginity like this. Maluoy ko sa akong uyab, nag sakit akong heart ngano gi ing’ani taka. Naa pajd sa lingkoranan and nagkalisod pasad tang duha. I love you kaayo and I want to let you know na di ko ganahan og ingun’ani ha?” Mao nani run, ni sugod na og tulo akong luha. Huhu what did I do to deserve such amazing man? I really do love him and I can see it na he truly has good intentions para sa akoa. Dili ko flavor of the day lang na matilaw2 niya. He truly cared and that made me fall in love with him even more. Tungod atong panghitaboa mi samot na nuon ko og ka horny kay laliman ka ingun’ana diay siya? Wala ko mag dahum na undangan to niya among gi buhat. I cried so much and I can see na genuine kaayo siya and na luoy nako. I kissed him and decided to just suck him off. First time diay nako but I tried my best. A reward diba at least malipayon iyang notch bisan kahibaw ko nga ganahan najd siya mag kuan mi. After such time, life went on and sige mig kuyog. I get to know him even more and na in love pod ko’g maayo niya. One day, he told me na wala daw siyay money so I brought canned good tuna for him. Share ra unta mi ato kay dako man. Nag dala pod ko og rice but ambot nalimot siya iya bitaw ng gi hurot tanan. So since gutom kaayo ko, wala na nuon ko’y kaon hahays. Gi kasab’an pd nako siya kay sige syag taxi or angkas. Duol ra baya unta ang condo to office niya but mu gasto siyag mga 200+ for back and forth fare. Sayang kaayo if 16php ra iyang magasto if mag jeep siya. After ato, ni adto nako sa school kay naa pakoy 12:30 class but mu balik rako. Ako tawn nag sakay og jeep gutom kaayo. Wala ko ka agwanta ga withdraw nalang kog money and ni kaon sa jollibee sa unahan kay gutom najud kaayo ko. Tigom2 nalang unta ni nako na kwa’an pajd hahayssss Ven. After atong panghitaboa, ni borrow siyag money nako 10k and gipa huwam rapod nako siya and ilisan rako niya after. Nahibong baya ko after a few days naka kwarta rapd siya and gi ilisan ko niya. Wa lng pd ko ni ask why.
So first time, ni adto ko sa condo niya. Sakto rajd siya if kami duha mag stay didto char hehe so mao to ga vega2 nami ngadto and funny kaayo among way of vega2 kay ang tip rajd iyang ipasulod. Ingun’ana siya grabe ka respeto nako. Ambot lang asa kaha ko makakitag ing’ani.
Fast forward, sige nami’g ingun ana ra nga style sa vega but really, diha rajd kutob until such time, wa siya ka agwanta. Na pasulod jd niya ang iyaha. Perti intawn niya’g sorry nako kay he feels as if gi pugos jd niya which in reality wala. Pa boang2 nlng to amo gi buhat but yes, we’re having sex naman gd. Di na siya angay ikauwaw or unsa. Nag away pami slight ky basin icompare daw nako siya sauban and sa akoang past. I’m not saying na sakto to but I know his intentions are pure and wa najd to niya tuyua. Grabe napod iyang pugong2 nako. Hays..
Anyways, march came and covid-19 hit the Philippines really bad especially ang center point ky Cebu haskang paeta. Naka chamba pako og adto kapila niya didto kay namotbot ko na nagborrow ko sa akong cousin sa iyang laptop for online class. Later ato, naa’y time jd nga nag lisod iyang business partner og padala niya og money kay lahi man gd iyang bank and ako since International bank man ang BDO so gipa transfer niya ang iyang money didto sa akoang bank. May nlng sd na pa’anaron ko niya og gunit og dagko nga cash. It shows sad na he trusts me fully. So mao to, nagpadala og 45k tong iyang kaila and na nerbyos ko. Since na trauma na lage ko atong boyfriend sa akong mama anang hatag2 og kwarta, ma tingkig jd ko og gunit og kwarta labi na gikan og boyfriend palang. So gipa anad jd ko niya. Test pd to kung asa ko kutob mu help niya. Mao to, nag problema man mi kay di ma transfer sa iyang account ang money gikan sa akoang BDO. It left us no choice but to call the bank, little did I know nga di na diay pwede ma sudlan since naay limit ang iyahang bank card. Na confess niya’g ahat na dagko nga amounts of money na sulod na sa iyang account and di na mu dawat sa akong padala. Na sakpan nuon nako na daghan jd syag kwarta. In short, na dato na diay ang boang. Ni tug’an dayon siya nga before he tried to make a call center company pero na void since naa’y mga business partners na ng scam and many more pa. Hilig jd siya mu risgo sa iyang money and ang nahitabo na nuon, before covid iya diayng gi himong show money iyang savings like all savings niya iyang gi himong show money sa business para ma approve didto. But since nahitabo man ang nahitabo karon, na diminish og ni liquify iyang kwarta ky ni gamay ang currency and ang uban business partners ni back out sa ilang business. In short, na bankrupt siya. Hays. Luoy bitaw siya karon, kay maningil nlng gud tawn sa mga utangan niya sauna. Usually if naa’y mangutang niya bali iya nalang jd ihatag kay maluoy siya but now, wa na siya’y choice but to paningil. But I still see the hardworking man that i’ve met. He still strives even if eh close na ata ilahang company any time soon. It’s an insurance company diay so gunit jd og dagko kaayo na amounts of cash. But good news, nag try napod siya’g HR company. On going pa and I have visions na he could make it. Kabaw baya mo, basta naa ko’y vision ma tinuod jd raba so pray lang ninyo guys og ako na ma successful.
After such time, we already talked na diay about marriage and he plans to marry me jd. I forgot to mention diay, before covid happened, ni informally propose na diay siya nako through call and he promised to marry me but since 20 paman ko and needed pa jd og parent’s consent if below 21, dili lang sa. Hopefully maayong lawas if mu lambo ang business sa HR company, soon magpakasal nami hehe. Mu graduate pasad jd intawn ko kay on-going third year student pako. Hapit na gamay nalang.
Anyways, this story would hopefully teach you a lesson dear reader. Love comes at the right time. Never look for love, let love find you please. Ayaw pag gukod, pag beg or ayaw hilaki ang gugma nga wala pa kay ma abot rana. In the peakest point of my life, wala jd baya ko nangita og love kay ganahan ko mu focus jd sa akong self and my goals and ambitions but life has its way of surprising me a man na who would walk through waters with me, grabe bitaw ako nalang jd uli’on for good? Ka mahal nalang gud og ka swerte sa akong bilat nu? Hehe jke... LDR is real guys. Daghan man og scam diha pero if makachamba jd mo og tarong, he/she will truly love you unconditionally hehe anyways, this confession will let you realize that you should never give up on love okay? Love will find you at the right moment and at the right time. Pag pray nlng pd, whether or not religious ka, or it doesn’t matter what religion you are in as long as you pray ma imoha rana if mu hatag ug sign si Lord. Basta ayaw lng pod og demanding kaayo.
Thank you so much for tuning in. Please like, share and comment sad para ma motivate ko og share og lain journeys of my life pd. This is my second time posting and I will post soon if mag propose na siya formally nako. Hehe I will let you guys know.
For Ven, I know you’re not a fan of facebook or any other social media platform but I hope you’ll be happy that I get to share this journey of ours to others. I will truly love you until my last love. I love you kaayo my gorby!😘 (Gor nga baby hehe)
Readers, I’ll remind you to...
Never give up on love hun, it will find you.
See you next time.
Love, El✨
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