Boys Must Read (Last Response)

"Boys, Must Read"

Reply to my love. 😭💔

Love, gahuwat ko sa imung reply last night. Even if wakoy siguraduhan na mo reply ka, naghuwat gyapon ko. I know gisendan ka sa atong friends sa confession kay I planned it to be really obvious para makahibaw gyud ka na para imoha to. Wa ko ga expect na mureply ka. After how many months of not talking, we finally had the strength to talk to each other bisag indirect lang.

I know you are waiting for my reply because kahibaw ko na di ka ganahan dili replyan (just like the good old times). I'm sorry if wala ko na kareply dayun. Wala ko kalihok when I was reading your confession. Mura ko ug gidunggab one million times. Ni hugno akong kalibutan while nag basa sa imong confession. I burst into tears and oo, wala ko nakatulog the whole night kay wa kuy lain nabuhat kundi ang mo hilak. 

Love,

Mingaw na kaayu ko nimo. Mura naku og mabuang sa ka mingaw nimo. Mingaw na ko sa times na mag away ta over small things and in the end, mutagad ra ka nako kay di nimu ma agwanta na mag away ta. Mingaw na ko sa times na mangaon ta sa gawas na ubay ubay pud imung orderon and di rapud gihapun ta kahurot. Mingaw na ko sa times na mangutana ka ug "nikaon naka love?", "nauli naka?", "kinsa imo kuyog di ara?", "unsa ka orasa uli?". Mingaw na ko sa times na manawag ka out of the blue and cge tag sturya hangtod sa maabtan ta tunga sa gabie og di ta mahunong kung way makatulog natong duha (pero most of the time, ako jud na). Mingaw naku sa tanan nimong efforts na ginabuhat para nako. I miss all your efforts, small and big efforts. I could still remember na naay one time nasuko ko kay ni effort ka. Tanawa ra kung unsa ko kabogo? Bobo jud ko bobo. Panagsa rata maka agi ug babae na mo effort ug kayang labwan ang efforts na atong gihatag pero ako pa ang nasuko. Kasuwerte na unta nako! Kasuwerte naku naa naka uyab ko ug babaye na parihas nimu. Suwerte na kaayu ko nimo pero gisayangan ra taka. Mingaw najud kaayu ko nimo sobra. Sobra sobra. 💔

Gusto ko mangayo pasaylo nimu love. Sa tanan tanan. I'm sorry if I'm not good enough. I'm sorry if I wasn't able to equate the efforts that you have given. And I'm sorry if I didn't try. I'm sorry if I was only good with my apologies. Sorry if I wasn't consistent. Sorry if I wasn't consistent with my efforts of showing that I love you and that you are important to me. Sorry if maayo ra ko sa una. 💔 Sorry if you felt na I didn't prioritize you. Sorry if I wasn't able to do the little things that can actually make you happy. Ikaw ang klasi na babae na dili mo demand og material things. Happy na kaayu ka kung magkuyog ta, kung mag sturya ta, kung manawag ko, kiligun naka sa akong sweet messages. Actually, di jud ko mag lisod na palipayon ka kay ikaw ang klase sa babae na dili demanding. Sorry if I wasn't consistent with those. Sorry if I failed to treat you like you're so much loved. Ako imong first love ug first boyfriend and supposedly, I should do all things na maka happy nimo pero wa koy ayo, I broke your heart. 💔 I'm sorry I was so insensitive. I'm sorry if I was so selfish. I'm sorry if it felt like I didn't prioritize you. I'm sorry if I was so unfair with you. I know I was so unfair and it hurts me so bad knowing na I lost you because of my stupidity. Im sorry gipa feel nako nimo na di ka importante and I'm sorry wa ko nag paka lalaki. 💔

Thank you for loving me. And thank you for loving my family. Thank you for accepting me, my flaws, my imperfections. Thank you for being patient with me even if I'm an asshole, a pain in the ass. Thank you because you tried your very best, thank you because gikaya nimo ang tanan pain na akong nahatag nimo until such time na di na nimo kaya. Thank you for being the BEST girl friend. Imo kong gipa realize na in life, kausa rata maka meet og someone na kayahon tanan para lang nato. Someone na bisag sakit na, padayun gyapun kay gihigugma ta nila. Someone na parihas nimu. Pero bobo ko, gipasagdan rasad naku na mawagtang ka. Bogoa naku love uy. Karon raku ka realize sa tanan. Karon raku ka realize kung unsa ko ka bobo, kung unsa ko ka tanga, kung unsa ko ka way ayo. Karon pa, karon pa na nawala naka naku. 💔

Deserve nimu na malipay. Deserve nimu na di na masakitan. Di naku kaya na makit an ka someday na naa nay lain. Di naku kaya huna hunaun na someday, someone would do the things that I should be doing. Ako dapat mo buhat ana. I was your first love diba? And I really wanna be your last. 💔💔💔 

You said good bye but I still believe na di pani ang end. Di ko mo give up nimo love. Bogo ko kay karon pa, karon pa ko na ing ani. Pero swear love, I won't give you up. I believe this isn't good bye, I believe na you and I could still be possible. 💔

I've lost the moon while

I was busy counting stars.

I hope di ni mahitabu sa uban lake. Ay mo pag salig na naa sila permi, na mosabot sila permi. Pag paka lake mo. Di ko ganahan ma agian ninyu ang akong situation run. Sakit kaayu and ambot if kaya ba ninyu. Let's be a man. Let us realize their worth before they are all gone.

So to my love,

this isn't good bye. 

I won't give up.

I love you so much. 💔

(Di ko hilig confession pero if this is the only way na maka talk ko nimo, I wouldn't mind doing this for you.)

Thank you so much..